I was inspired by the morning radio show I listen to on my way to work every morning. Every once in a while, the hosts will do a “dear blog” feature where, instead of typing about what’s going on in their lives, they’ll speak them. And these features could be anything from sharing personal stories to asking for advice.
I figured why not incorporate something similar in my blog to keep my readers updated on my personal life and what’s going on in my little slice of the world. Let’s get started!
I just finished my first full week of school with students and we ended the week with getting COVID tested. It amazes me how affected we all are a year and a half later. It also amazes me that “spit into the tube” was a direction that I gave to my students. Never did I ever think during my teacher training that I’d utter those words out loud to my students!
It’s crazy to think how much school has changed. The education system is always adapting to new ideas and strategies, but school and the classroom have changed drastically within the last year and a half. It’s interesting and sometimes exciting, but also completely terrifying. What happens if we never get out of this pandemic? Will I constantly live in this unsure, anxiety-filled state where I might have to adapt to teaching from home again? I can handle teaching while wearing a mask all day as well as some of the other new health and safety protocols, but I can’t handle the uncertainty.
Although I’m happy that my school is taking necessary precautions and providing testing, it still makes me nervous of another quarantine or another year of teaching from my dining room table. All it takes is one positive test result to put an entire grade level on a 10-day quarantine… And what if this week’s test leads to that?
I’m trying to stay positive and hopeful — as I’ve been trying to be throughout this entire pandemic — but I can’t help but think of the worst. I’ve always been a “glass half full” kind of gal, but as I’ve gotten older, I’ve learned that sometimes it’s best to not get my hopes up and prepare for the worst. Is that too cynical? I don’t know…
I guess, at this point, I just want to know whether I’m alone in feeling this way or not. As “go with the flow” as I am with being safe and healthy at work, I’m also sick of being in this pandemic and it makes me think about whether we’ll ever get out or not. Is there a light at the end of the tunnel, and is it closer than we think or slipping farther and farther away?
Guess we’ll have to wait and see.